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- today i got an industrial barbell in my ear.. its where you have two holes in your cartlige and one long barbell connecting both of them.. it looks hot. it hurt/hurts alot though. good thing i am good with pain =)
- raf came over today. we walked to the deli & stuff..
- we dropped raf off cause he had to be home by 6
- then i ate dinner with the whole family
- then visited my grandmama.. it took an hour to get there and we only spent less then 5 minutes there cause she was asleep and so we didnt want to bother her ::sigh:: what a waste of 2 hours.
- came home and had cake with my family to celebrate the parents birthdays
- marissa is leaving to go on tour for les misarables this weekend.. for 8 months.. eeeek.
- im tired
- i just shaved my legs.. soooo soft.
- the parents are going out for the day tomrw.. raf may come over... im excited.
well.. ta ta for now.. oh and before i forget,
( http://www.ofoto.com/BrowsePhotos.jsp?&collid=559198976105) < pics of this weekend & such.
love & lust , stephanie
ps. comments are nice !
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| i like lyin naked in my bedroom.. |
[26 Sep 2004|08:57am] |
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hi =)
hmmm i dont really know what to write about but i havent updated in a couple of days so i figured i will. on friday i hung out with my girLSS.. sarah and lara.. & wow. i love them so much.. they make me soo happy. there awesome and beautiful people & i missed them so much... i love you guys <3...so yeah we just chilled at lara's house but then sarah had to go home around 7 because of the holliday.. so then me rafael + lara went to the movies. we saw 'the forgotten' .. WOW. what a fucking INSANE movie.. you def should see it if you havent already.. mmm... yesterday was my mother's birthday.. so we all went to the hamptons to go see my sisters play.. it was good. i kinda had fun....... kinda. today i think im hanging out with raf <3. yeppppppp okay i gotta go. mommy's making me breakfast.
love & lust , Stephanie.
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i love his eyes, i love his smile, i love how he gets goosebumps when i tickle his stomach, i love when he kisses me, i love our long hugs, i love when he holds my hand, i love sharing cigarettes with him, i love how he worries about me, i love how he laughs with me, i love how he bugs out when hes stoned, i love being with him, i love how hes my best friend, i love it when he licks me, i love it when he gets my lipgloss on him after kissing me, i love his style, i love his laugh, i love touching him, i love how he loves me & i love him.
<3 [ r a f a e l ]
love, Stephanie___*
<lj-cut text="( camera whore )">
thats all folks <3 peace out niggahhh
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HELLOOOOOO.. today i went to school and it was okay.. i was outside smoking a cigarette and i made a new friend *smile* her name is nichole and she seems mad cool.. tomrw we are gunna take some tranqualizers before school.. haha hooray for pills yummy pills! ugh lately my moods have been so unpredictible and it sucks cause im already on a bunch of mood stableizers but they dont seem to be working. i hate this.. i hate everything.. see now im saying that but im 5 minutes.. ill be like 'hmm.. everythings so beautiful!! ilove everything' no joke. its serioulsy rediculous and i cant stand it cause i can never tell how i am going to feel the next day, hour, or minute! my family hates me. i give them to much stress.. arg .. i just want rafael to come over right now more then anything. he puts me in such a calm mood and i dont feel like i have to impress or be anyone else when im with him.. he loves me for me and i cant get enuff of it. we get along perfectly and mmm hes just really good to me. see.. now im in a really good mood. hmm ..... oh and btw, isnt this wonderful? ::
me : mom can you at least get me something to eat? i havent eaten anything all day
mom- well thats your fault stephanie. and no i told you , im not going out today.
me: well what do you expect me to eat? your always bothering me to eat eat eat but when theres accually a time that i WANT to eat, you say no!
mom- honestly steph, i dont really care what you do right now.
me: GOOD thats just great. i just wont eat, if you dont care, i dont care..nice parenting skills ma!
:::slams door dramaticly:::
anyways, nothing has really been going on lately.. home is shit. therapy is shit. my family is shit...oh well.. ehem..
anyways, i just took some pictures, i figured id post them. here you go.
bellaa <33
this makes me smile.
me.
l o v e , S t e p h a n i e
ps. if raf comes over today ill post later with more pics.
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soo.. hi..
well i just got back from my second day of school.. and its going okay so far.
i havent made any friends yet. i hope i do soon. i feel like such a loner.
i was walking through the halls and out of no where this spanish guy spanked me. i was like "uhmm.. hi thats mine?" and hes like "get used to it." how about no. how about i respect myself and my boyfriend enuff that i dont want random people touching me. ugh it was so kreepy (sp?) .. so i just walked to class.
i fixed my camera. and now i have some random pictures from this summer & such.
livejournals being gey.. & there comming out as red x's so here ::
(clix for pix)
l o v e , S t e p h a n i e .
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I love Rafael.
l o v e , S t e p h a n i e .
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| marty was a punkrocker |
[17 Sep 2004|04:39pm] |
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hey loves,
new icon//layout.. ya like? i like. :)! thanks sarrieee
anyways, today i woke up and i felt sick as a dog
my throat is killing me and my glands are still swollen and sore
its a little better now, it just hurts when i swallow.. ;)
ha ha ha.. uummmm, today i did pretty good with my eating.
i ate half a bagle in the morning with nothing on it and then
for dinner i had my dads 'birthday dinner' i was upset after i ate it
but then i talked to john and he made me feel better =D tankz johnnylove!
i just called raf and asked him if he can still come over tonight
because that was the original plan.. he said he will call me back so
now im waiting for his call.. hmmphh.. im thinking of making my journal friends only
but im not sure if i want to cause then people who dont have
livejournals like john and raf and lara ect cant see it.
whatever, we will see..
i just got the call from raf and now hes saying he has
'alot of stuff to take care of in town'
so idk if we are going to be seeing eachother tonight
^_^ whatevuur..
today is my dads birthday.. i really dont like him.. at all
hes really mean so i didnt get him anything.. no card & no present
fuck'em.
aright gotta blast, possible update later.
x0x <3 stephaniiiiee
ps. im getting my digicam fixed so pics soon!
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| ei chi wawa! |
[16 Sep 2004|02:48pm] |
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hmmm
yesterday was my first day of school.. it was great, i love it.. it starts at 11:15 and you get out around 1:30ish.. its fucking awesome, you get 8 minute breaks between classes and your aloud to go outside for cigarettes. the teachers can smoke with you too! & theres only 4 periods a day. its so differant from syosset. the people are all like gangsterishh and its great, i met alot of guys & one girl named margrot. they were all really nice to me, i didnt expect that. anyways........... idk what im doing today, hopefully something fun. :)
What Would You do if...
I cried:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got in a fight and you were there:
I got dumped:
I pissed you off:
What Do You Think Of My...
Personality:
Eyes:
Face:
Hair:
Clothes:
Voice:
Humor:
Choice of music:
Mannerisms:
Family:
Friends:
Decisions:
Would You...
Be my friend:
Tell me the truth no matter what:
Lie to make me feel better:
Spread rumors about me:
Keep a secret if I told you one:
Loan me some cash:
Hold my hand:
Take a bullet for me:
Keep in touch:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me:
Have Sex with me:
Ditch me:
Use me:
Date me:
Rape me:
Beat me up:
^ do dat fingy nigguhh
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| yo yo yo s-dawg hurrrr |
[14 Sep 2004|10:47pm] |
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% today i went to the doctor.. they weighed me and great news. i lost 14 pounds since my last visit! when she saw the scale she gave me a look of sadness. i wanted to be like FUCK YOU you ugly nurse. i am on the road to perfection and i dont care what you & all the other fatass nurses and doctors say. they brought me into this room and took out this HUGE FUCKING NEEDLE.. i was like OMGZ!%$*^! then they were like it wont hurt a bit! .. so i gave her my arm.. fasinated by the scars, she looked at me in dissapointment ::tsk tsk stephanie:: ohhh shut up and stick me. well it hurt alot more then i thought it would.. i have blood clots in my arms and finger tips so it always takes a while to get the blood out and it hurt like a mother fucker that i fainted! i accually fainted! ba ha ha the basterds deserved the scare.
% tomrw is my first day of school :::eeeeek::: im so nervous!! what if i get picked on!?! what if no one likes me!?! *sigh* i hope il be okay.. it IS where all the gangsters go.. no more jackass preppies anymore for me.. this is the real deal.
% i am seeing rafael tomrw. vuurry excited!!@#$%^& its the first time in two days! TWO WHOLE DAYS!! thats a record for us.. ever since i think 2 weeks ago we have seen eachother ever single fucking day. im not used to this madness YES MADDNESS ITS MADNESS!!@#$%^ MADdNESS I TELL YOU PURE MADNESS.. I LOVE HIM.
% right now my mom is begging me to go to sleep. so i guess i will just listen to the bitch. NIGHT YALL!
x3 meee
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Leave a comment with your name
if you want to know what I really think of you,
and I’ll reply and tell you.
N o l i e s , a l l h o n e s t y .
If you don't want to know the truth,
don't leave your name
...kthnxbye
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| ana sends her love |
[13 Sep 2004|02:17pm] |
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well today i woke up at 4. and i have a horrible headach and my glands are all swollen and they hurt.. and then theres always the fat factor which makes me sick to my stomach.
i really wish i could just be comfertable with my weight.. i see girls walking around all the time with there belly hanging out over there pants and yeah, its gross.. but at the same time.. i aplaud them.. i wish i could just be carefree about my weight and now always worrying about how gross and fat i look.. a month ago i weighed 115. now i weight 100.. and its still not good enough.. my goal was to be 95 when i started school.. but no. its just so hard.. food makes me so miserable.. but at the same time i love it.. you cant excape it.. everywhere you go.. its there. i hate it.. i hate myself.. i hate ana! but at the same time, i love ana.. i dont know what to do. :::thinks::: AH HAH! i knowwww..i will go on a fast.. for .. 3 days.. only water.. today i will eat 14 prezles (a handfull) which is 110 calories and then that will be it for the 3 days. okay.. well now that i have a plan i feel a little better but not quite.. see.. everytime i eat.. i just get so depressed.. i feel like im getting sucked into a black hole of lonleyness.. i hate eating in front of people.. certain people i can deal with eating infront of them.. but i still could never EVER binge infront of anyone. ugh i just want to be skinny!! GOD DAMNIT.
i am discusting.
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| hooray the princess is back in the hizzouse |
[12 Sep 2004|08:23pm] |
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AHHH YAYAYYAYAYAY i am backk!! for a while i got sick of eljay but then i totally started to miss it. so yes. i am back. and you missed me. well i have gone a whole summer without updating so i will try my hardest to remember everything that went down.
-canada
-lake george
-having a 4some
-meeting danny
-going out with paul
-conneticut to visit paul
-getting jumped by niggers
-meeting raf
-falling in love with raf
-ALLISON!!!
-living at lara's house
-camera broke =( RIP
-meeting jesse.. ::sigh::
-realizing who my true blues were
-hanging out with raf every single day
-lots of black people making me cry.
-heartbreaks <|3
- losing weight =D =)
- ROADTRIP WITH DIANA <33!!!
-broadway mall boys bathroom with raf ;)
-back of plainveiw shopping centre.. with raf.
- quiting drugs for a while
- ^ ha ha ha ha ha.
- sex with allison.. alot.
- stopped shoplifting
- making some ...naughty videos and..SOMEONES dad finding them
- losing natty as my best friend =(
-getting in trouble wit da po po
-basso <3
-getting piss drunk with kelly , brittany & katie at FAMILY CAMP, ha ha ha
((not in order))
so anyways. overall this has been a good summer. very long for me accually because i havent started school yet.. for all of you shitheads that havent noticed, i dont go to syosset highschool anymore. im going to EAC now. i know some people miss me.. i know some people dont. but oh well, those who do, i am more then definet we will see eachother soon because i know who you are =D.. mmmmmmm... i think i have mono accually.. my glands are all swollen. it could be something els but whatever it is, i gave it to raf tonight... he loves it. & im sorry i dont have any pictures from this summer.. like i said, my camera broke so yeah.. that sucks.. like alot. well i am gunna go. i will mos deff update tomrw.
x0x love & lust
<3 stephieepiee
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soooooo hiii.. SCHOOLS OVER FOR ME FOOLS! most people have math tests on monday but i dont cause speds rock and we took them on friday. OKay wow. earth science rejents- Um hi? please die. that had to be the hardest test in my intire life.. i guessed on like every one. i kmnow i failed.. haveta take it over next year anyways. =\.. but yeah umm, yesterday i went into the city with sarriebaby and we went to see my sisters show.. stoopid me i took bong hits with erica before hand and i was like totally dead during the show.. but it was good.. yah.. love you sarahhhh <3.. and now i am waiting for my love, my life, Diana to come to pick me up! :) tomrw im going out with natty and i am oober excited.. we have been waiting for this for like so long. anyways im gunna go, ill probably update later (possibly with pictures?) kk
x0x luvs n hugs
<3 stephiieeeee
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| stoled from britttiiieee |
[17 Jun 2004|04:55pm] |
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1. who are you, what's our relationship:
2. how and where did we meet:
3. what's my middle name:
4. how long have you known me:
5. tell me one good thing about myself:
6. when you first saw me what was your impression:
7. my age:
8. birthday:
9. my favorite band at the moment:
10. color eyes:
11. do i have any siblings:
12. have you ever had a crush on me:
13. what's one of my favorite things to do:
14. do you remember one of the first things I said to you:
15. describe me in 3 words:
16. name 5 things i love:
17. do you think i'm good looking:
18. how would you describe me to someone:
19. would you ever date me:
20. tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never
did:
21: what do you like most about me:
22: if we could spend a day together what would we do:
23: have we ever gotten in a fight:
24: do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more
years:
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
26. What do you think my weakness is?
27. Do you think I'll get married?
28. What makes me happy?
29. What makes me sad?
30. What reminds you of me?
31. If you could give me anything what would it be?
32. When's the last time you saw me?
33. Do you think our friendship is getting
stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and
I would listen?
35. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see
what I say about you?
36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?
37. What song (if any) reminds you of me?
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it
be?
39. Would you make a move on me?
40. Do I cross your mind at least one time a day?
now. do it.
PS>>> I FOUND THE BOWL THAT MY MOM STOLE FROM ME AND I AM SO FUCKING EXCITED.
and now, i just need some tree =\
kk so yeah do the thingy
<3 luvz n hugz
x0x stephiepie
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| meoww purr purr |
[11 Jun 2004|11:00pm] |
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hi. today was funn! its friday and its like the second to last day of school-- schools such a joke now.. basicly i skip the whole day cause what are they going to do about it ? so after i went home, mat came over.. we chilled and then lara came over and we went to the mall to meet up with the rest of the rainbow connection and mike, anthony, sebasstian, krie, britany amlinger, and yah.. i had funn =) , i was sad though cause no one could sleep over :(.. but oh wellz .. me and the girLSSS bought rainbow bracelettes and there way cool.. i got this garfeild wallet from clairs and i put a picture of mikey in it :)!! now my cat is eating my toes. anyways, this was a short and sweet post. ill try =) to post tomrw--
=) lovez n hugz <3
- - - stephieepie
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| keep your head up, the colors are beautiful |
[08 Jun 2004|05:13pm] |
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okay really sorry i havent updated in a while.. ive just been busy. umm today is tuseday. yeah. well okay friday i went to lara's house and saw the whole rainbow connecshun there and anthony, mike, sebasstian and evan. twas funnn!! i slept there and in the morning i went home. then i went out with nattie bo battiieee... we were supose to go to the beach but it was a shitty day so we decided that we would just drive around and find something to do.. well we did. we decided we wanted to buy mushrooms. so we did. and we went to the huntington village and ate them in the parking lot.. at first we didnt start tripping out and there really wasnt that much to do and nat had to pee so we just went back to her apprtmt. and THATS when we started to trip out. nat took some pictures cause i was like bugging out hehe 8-) ..
me and nat in the parking lot of HV :
<3
my "porno face" ???
"OH MY GOD"
someones confused.
freakkayy :
sunday i really didnt do anything, and monday i went to the jail on a feild trip.. bad experiance.. lots of nasty men yelling at me.. =X .. oh wellz.. gotta blast <3
-- stepherrrrrr
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| do it fockkerr =) |
[03 Jun 2004|11:51pm] |
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what would you do if you were alone with me in a room?
what would you do if i asked you to kill someone with me?
what would you do if we were the last people on earth?
what would you do if i asked you out?
what would you do if i asked you to sleep with me?
what would you do if we were in bed together?
what would you do if you walked in on me taking a shower?
did you ever have any fantasies of me?(explain)
what about dreams?(explain)
have you ever had a crush on me?
when?
what is my best physical feature?
mental?
am i nice or mean?
have you ever wanted to tell me something and you couldnt quit tell me?(and tell me)
have you ever hated me?(if so why?)
have you ever been in love with me?
tell me something about yourself:
please and thank you :)
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on saterday i went to my family friend's house and it was pretty boring,and then i went to sarahs house at 10:30 at night lol.. i had mucho funn =) we took pictures and watched Gothika.. really scary, like OMG I JUST PISSED MY PANTS scary.. we went to bed at 3 :30 at night and then in the morning we chilled for a while and then i went home.. then i went to justin's graduation party, it was okay.. on the way back i picked brit up and we made her mom go to CVS to buy dust off to "clean my room" well.. we got 4 cans.. my room must be prettyyyy dusty.=D.. anyways.. here are some pics from saterday night ::
mee
me molesting charlie::
sarriebabyyy :
um andrew why are taking a picture of my eye?
i like icecream.. alot
my cutie patootie =)
huh?
the goddamn hairbrush that i kept stepping on =( ::
umm.. my hair (?) :
bestfriendsalwaysandforeverandeverever
hehe awww :
yay and thats all.. so yeah. i had so much fun :) I LOVE YOU SARAHHH
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| id rather die then spend this night here without you |
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so yah today i got my kitten and she is absolutly adorable. i am so happy..
ill post pictures ASAP.
little survay thingy for you!
I _________ Stephanie.
Stephanie is _________________
If I were alone in a room with Stephanie I would_________________
I think Stephanie should__________________________
Stephanie needs_____________________
I want to __________ Stephanie
Stephanie reminds me of ______________
Without Stephanie _______________
My memories of Stephanie are ___________________________
Stephanie can be a ________________________________
The worst thing about Stephanie is_____________
The best thing about Stephanie is__________
I am _______ with Stephanie
When I think about Stephanie I______________
Someday Stephanie will_____________________
Stephanie is my____________________
DO ITTTTT =P
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